mjhetz

12:14 am: It's been 3 years. 3 years since that horrible call in the middle of the night, telling me you were gone, and my world has never been the same again. There are more good days than bad now, I suppose, but it's always there; something you would have enjoyed that I would like to share with you, something to tell you about Amanda or Sarah. You should see how they've grown in the last 3 years. You would be so proud of them, they are growing up to be beautiful, strong women.
I have all day today to imagine how you spent your last day. I know you were happy, out celebrating your anniversary. You stopped for lunch, stopped and bought a CD. Then at 3:00, you drove in front of a school bus, and you and your husband left us all.
Will there come a day I am thankful it was quick? No pain, no awareness, just here, then gone. For you maybe, it was quick. For me, that day has never ended.

It is not linear.

But I don't know how to live without you.

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12:46 am:

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A little scary, and too close to the truth

10:41 pm: Non Politics Meme(being a good sheep, baaaaaaa)
The non-politics meme:

1. Stop talking about politics for a moment or two.
2. Post a reasonably-sized picture in your LJ, NOT under a cut tag, of something pleasant, such as an adorable kitten, or a fluffy white cloud, or a bottle of booze. Something that has NOTHING TO DO WITH POLITICS.
3. share the love.


I'm in the middle of quilting this one now, I'll post another picture when it's done.

07:47 pm: Too cute.........

10:49 pm: OMG!!! Don't try this at home!!!

10:25 pm: Happy Father's Day, Dad. I miss you.



He lives in you
He lives in me
He watches over
Everything we see
In your reflection
He lives in you

10:38 pm: Still in Kansas
I'm still here in Kansas. Took my 92 year old cousin out to the Harveyville cemetery today, and decorated. My Mom used to come out here every May, and take him out. It was a beautiful day, and I took lots of flowers



Still looks like a grave to me

01:34 am:

08:59 pm: My life must be fairly pitiful, if getting the email confirmation of my registration at Shore Leave was one of the highlights of my day. But, on the other hand, as it was one of TWO cool things that happened today, maybe not so pitiful after all.
I also received this in the mail:



If any of you don't know who Earl, or Leon Rippy is, you can see him here:





Saving Grace is a show that was on TNT last summer, and is coming back for season 2 in July!!
Hmmmmmmm.........I wonder if I'll have to tape it when I'm away at Shore Leave?
Maybe my life isn't so pitiful after all.

12:27 am: Springtime In Ithaca!!
The pictures say it all:

10:55 pm: Snow
What a surprise! It's snowing in Upstate NY!!






Tags: home

06:43 pm: Newest member of the menagerie
Let's all give a warm welcome to the newest member of the menagerie, Monty:





And what kind of snake do you think he is??


I hear the music "Walk like an Egyptian............."

11:44 pm: Merry Christmas
Joyful, All Ye Nations Rise



Join the Triumph of the skies



With Angelic Hosts proclaim



Christ is born in Bethlehem



Hark! The herald angels sing



Glory to the newborn King

08:25 pm: Christmas Stocking.
They won't let me enter my stocking in the contest at work.........I can't figure out why.......

The people at work liked it ok....

12:06 am: Quote from a book
This paragraph was at the end of Pieces of My Sister's Life, by Elizabeth Joy Arnold, but it describes so well how I feel(and try to feel) about my Mother:

"I see her all the time now in new expressions I've adopted, a sideways glance in the mirror when I pass. And I see her on clear nights when I look into the emptiness to find her. She comes to me, through miles and worlds of lifetimes to let me know it's ok. You can face what you've done, can sort through your past and tuck the bad parts with the good parts into a bottom drawer. You can remember that they're hidden without ever having to take them out again, and in time the edges will blur and you will be left with the truth."

I read this, and I can think of my Mother, and smile.

01:24 am: I know my children look like me, and I could always see bits of my Mom here and there, but going through the box of photos tonight, I could see Amanda looking a lot like my Dad. A bittersweet comfort, seeing my parent's reflection in my children's faces.

03:33 pm: Fall Decorations
Finally got some fall decorations up outside........

09:22 pm: This was the day
I buried my Mother.

07:07 pm: In Memory of My Mother

See what I did today! Forget-me-nots and musical notes.......I love you, Mom